Thankful

This is a new season.
It was something strange at first to be in a new place and time, but now, I am seeing with so much thanks.
Like, how could I not be thankful?!

1.

In Baja California I think we had every kind of insect/reptile in our house being in the desert/mountainous area. Rats,frogs,snakes,lizards, stink bugs, more snakes, more mice and rats, ants, spider eggs hatched all over our bathroom, and other random creatures I don't know the names of.

Then there was coastal life in Oaxaca where I was used to acting like a professional mosquito fighter/defense, where I knew how to prevent mosquito entry/sucking of the blood. I remember one night watching Futbol/Soccer with my Mexican family, laying in the hammocks and sitting in chairs and there runs by a giant rat. That was when my Mexican parents ran and got their bats and it became a "hockey match" but the puck was a rat. The rest of us hopped up onto the kitchen counters and watched and screamed until the rat got passed and flew out through an open window.

The most recent was in Queretaro (city life) waking up to 20+ cockroaches in my downstairs hallway, bathroom, and kitchen (once in a while some came in thru my bedroom window by climbing up the outside wall of the house). Lol. After experiencing too many and when I became fed up with those nasty flying roaches, I learned strategies to protect the house and my sanity. I had NO problem killing the roaches violently and in Jesus' name.
Righteous anger came out at those critters in both homes. I prayed a lot. Haha.

In Redding, the animals: deer, snakes, mice, squirrels, mountain lions, bears are all here but outside!
That makes me thankful. 

2.

This environment is so healthy. I cannot imagine being in a more healthy, heaven happening now, environment. It is not perfect, the people are not perfect but that's why it is so healthy... they know this. MOST everyone is after wholeness in Christ, MOST everyone is after a continual submission and obedience/relationship with Jesus.
Healing, so much healing. People see each other as powerful people who are responsible for their own lives. This calls us step up to our calling and take ownership of our lives.
I have NEVER been given so much permission TO BE... to just be in my process. Everyone's voice is honored and validated. We are treated with love and seen past our SINS/SYMPTOMS/SHAME. We are given the tools while partnering with Holy Spirit to see the root cause of our sin and believing the truth about ourselves as new creatures. We are called to walk as the saints that we really ARE because of Jesus and we are being led in order to lead others the same way.
I am thankful for healthy leadership. Leaders who lead in freedom and love not controlled by fear and who do not control by punishment. Our leaders are not afraid of us!!! They will not run when things get hard. They let us come to them for both celebration and correction, good and bad news. I am SO thankful for strong, loving, male "authorities" here that I can trust and let them know/love me. 


I feel that this is unreal. HAH. I am so thankful that I have the chance to attend BSSM and receive all that they have fought for and stewarded so well! I want to soak it all into my heart and head and carry all the renovation with me forever and give it to anyone who wants freedom. I am amazed. Hunger begets hunger. The hungry will never go away empty. Jesus in us is everything the world needs and longs for. 

Ask Jesus to make you healthy in your heart and mind. For the sake of the world.
 

Fear will stay under HIS feet. We will be overcoming warriors.

[Here this is, if you relate then good.]


No joke, I did not sleep last night.

I thought I was just physically uncomfortable but I realized that I had a lot of stuffed emotions they ended up coming to the surface.
Last night trying to sleep felt like the Princess and the Pea (story) but as an emotional "pea" not physical.  [If you haven't heard of this story I suggest you look, it was a great one growing up.] I ended up crying and after I cried some and really felt, then I slept for the remaining 2 hours. I am back in the USA after 5 years. I've been here for almost 4 months and that's the longest I've been back. The past two years in Queretaro were especially unique where I only called/Skyped my fam once in a while in English and a few times had (the deep) conversations with my Pastors in English.
After living in another country/culture that not your own for any amount of time (especially where English is NOT the first language spoken) can be tricky.


Long story short... I am completely in English now and I feel lack (big time) with Spanish. I had a huge worry/fear before going to sleep last night that I would 1. forget Spanish  2. forget and loose all my experiences/testimony from my time in Mexico.

This was not the first time this has happened. And its funny. I laugh at it because the enemy is trying to attack exactly where God will use me and make HIS name great.
The enemy only comes to kill, steal and destroy. He is scared.
Closer and closer I get to being me the devil is threatened. I will use Spanish, I will use it constantly and I will be INTENTIONAL in my pursuit for it. I will speak about where I have been and I will continue to share stories about my life.  

Redding Pics

on the sundial bridge... Grandpa and dad

 

 

opportunity

Tomorrow is moving day. I was staying temporarily at a all girls house for the month of August while part of my house was getting remodeled. I got to know some amazing gals here and cant say that I will stay away for too long.
I have 4 boxes to pack up and move just down a few streets, so super close!

So far I have applied to work as a team member with the Bethel Nursery and have a practice interview and real interview for the next two Sundays to be a translator for Bethel from English to Spanish for the service. I am praying to succeed in both opportunities. I want so badly to work with Spanish and Spanish speakers at Bethel church. And here's the thing... I have so much Spanish/grammar knowledge and experience just from the past 3 years that I know God can use me to help with their team. I just need to access it in my mind and I need help from Holy Spirit to do so!
I hope that they give me the opportunity to stay close by on their team to learn and grow and very translate asap.

PRAY with me for those job opportunities. 
I am not settling and do not have to. I want to work, I will work, but I will work toward that which the Giver has put in my heart and not towards the fear of man that tempts me. I will sow into myself and invest. I will not settle out of anxiety or fear. Maybe you think that makes me stubborn...I think that makes me patient and firm in my trust in my good Father.

I am praying that I will not only have a stable income this year but also that I would move out to the "new lands" and with hard work gain deeper skills and add to my experiences.

xo

Redding

$1,725 left to go for my BSSM tuition for 2016-17 that is so cool!!!!!
I thought that was a lot, but it really it isn't. Not at all.
School starts in a month and here I am in Redding, Ca already. Students have been coming in and keep on comin. It is hot hot hot here in Redding Cali but even with the heat it has been a great week and 2 days of living here. I am renting from one house for the month of August then come September will move down the street to be in a beautiful home with a beautiful family for the rest the year. My roommates have been incredible. We are all warrior princesses. Wow. Even when fear and death try to threat us and linger at night we can stand strong and discerning on Gods promises. We don't have any need to shrink back and down; we can walk boldly and fearless. Courage is our call. The armor of God is everything for us.

This house, this neighborhood has a lot coming, for it is the Lords. Miracles and salvation are at the doors of each household. People will be lined up at the believers homes and all over the place hungry for Jesus. Hunger will ripple out. Our hunger for more of Jesus will affect our neighbors and their hunger will ripple to the other neighbors and out to the outsiders. God's love extends and is spacious. He will not be boxed into a building on Sundays, he will break out whether the people like it or not, he is on pursuit and will continue to pursue.

Moving on up

Great is the Lord, praise His name, praise His name!!!
Hope of all the nations, Light shining in the darkness, the Light for all the world to see.


In less than 24 hours some of my family and I will be getting into cars and driving north towards Sacramento, California and a bit further up still till Redding, California. I've been to Redding multiple times but have come back home after a few days... Now I'll be staying put for the school year.
Ill be moving to a place very close to church and school, walking distance even. I'm super excited to be surrounded by a healthy group of leaders, teachers, and spiritual family. I want to learn so much about living a life of revival... Fire in the dark. Warmth in the cold. Called to love and seek purity.
And it starts here and now.

This summer has been amazing. So much of the unexpected has happened. I'm not complaining one bit. I have been delightfully surprised at little things in life. I have had great time with family and friends and I started to get plugged into such a sweet and dear church family- Anthem along with Jounrey congregation. I didn't expect to get plugged in and accepted so much. I LOVE that it happened. In these short months I've had great times of prayer together with many, encouragement from spiritual leaders. I decided to "play" a lot more and let go of unhealthy fear and obligation so, this has turned into a restful and playful summer.
I am transitioning from a season in Mexico of work work work, church ministry and lots of growth in leading others to a time of resting and stepping into the position to learn  as a student instead of teacher.
This is a time of discovery and thriving. A time of letting go heaviness and becoming light and unfolding into ME. Stepping into ME.

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A rising fire

I had been living, for I don't know how long... in a misconception of Your love God. When I understand your love I get to love and accept love.

1 JOHN 💙💙💙 is where I'm at right now. 

I thank You God that we are DIFFERENT that is SO OK. I am sorry for criticizing YOUR creation. I am so sad for how I've seen people. It was so subtle that I didn't even notice it. Without patience and with judgement, I had unknowingly, been in agreement with satan by putting the pressure and shame ¡¡¡that Jesus removed!!! back onto Your children (and myself). Jesus freed us all from all condemnation and here I was, not seeing hope or calling out the wonderful callings in people but rather I criticized... 

I have now decided to step out of agreement with the schemes of the devil and my old flesh to step into freedom. If am healed and I am now light which is my new identity and I do not act like it, that is my own fault and I won't be able to shine so others can see. So I walk forward in the bought freedom and gifted grace. 

I know God wants to use me in people's lives to speak LIFE and HOPE... It's so obvious that is it a passion you've put in me but I have consciously decide to walk in freedom to help others walk in freedom. My hearts desire is to speak life and wholeness and live under an open Heaven. I am called to walk in the Spirit, not try to be Holy Spirit.  I repent of acting like I can ever take the responsibility of Holy Spirit.  I don't get to be critical as I am NO judge. I am just as guilty as any other, but legally and powerfully excused.

I have come to know is that Love is oh so powerful. This is what brings us change. Lover, You find us and You mend. Here and now, You mend. I want to see you JESUS break out and heal. I want to be used by you Jesus to see generations break into freedom and purity. I will speak life and not death. 

God you make all things new.    

Renew my patterns and thinking. You now, are within me and all around me, there is no place for guilt or shame in your Kingdom. Hallelujah. We are the free.