I do not know what the heck I am doing.
I thought this year would be better, that it would go more smoothly... with the experience from the class last year. " I know what to expect"... boy I was wrong! This is a completely different class, completely different kids, & completely different needs. I don't know what I am doing.
James 1: 2 & 3
Count it all joy, my brothers, when you meet trials of various kinds, for you know that the testing of your faith produces steadfastness.
Joy with a child that does not want to be in the same room as me.
Joy when 3 different kids are screaming out and screaming out and screaming out
Joy when dealing with a child for bad behavior
Joy when my brain is done and my head is spinning trying to learn two languages at one time & spinning with everything I have to still do
Joy when all I want to do is sleep.
I refuse to see these "problems" & "issues' as anything less than an opportunity to see God.
Oh let me tell you I am feeling the trials. I am completely thrown off teaching the Pre- K/ Kindergarten class. I love them, but its just so difficult! This is not not not easy! I have to remember its only been three days it could get better. Even though it is exhausting and sometimes frustrating I love it. I know this is exactly where God wants me and is growing me. These challenges only make me want to push harder. Everyday is new with an adventure waiting. Instead of clinching my fist at new assignments, I will face them with joy and courage.
-Could you pray for me that I am resting in Him. Pray for my mind to be clear, alert, and
constantly living in His Presence where I truly belong. I've been praying that God would work miracles in me as I am learning also the Spanish language... it is pretty difficult for me ,but I want it more than ever before.
-Also for the kids here and especially in my class. That their minds would open up and they would have an understanding of knowledge when communicating and learning and a knowledge of God and His love and goodness. And not just head knowledge but that it sinks into their souls.