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God, the creator of heaven and earth, knew every single bit of what was to come and He chose us. He saw all that we would do or not do, He saw us and chose us anyway. AND He actually likes us!

 I knew what I was getting into... <-- I heard this spontaneous song a few years back with Hidden Manna Ministry , again in Oaxaca Mexico and AGAIN here in Queretaro... I also found that I had it saved in my own music. Each time I hear this song God ministers to me hugely! Check it out (please).

The thought, the truth really, that God is crazy about us is hard for some to believe.
 "Only if I do better, I deserve His love." "I'll try again harder" Pretty much we could put anything in those parenthesis that shows- us needing to do something in order to (finally) receive... as if we could.
What God has shown me is that is our own pride and insecurities, our need to do it all ourselves and try try try are in the way of receiving. What we have been given (past tense) is a GIFT, it is called  GRACE. This is what the newness is all about in Christ. There is nothing we can do, but rather it is what we get to step into, walk into, and need to grab a hold of. It has all been DONE and it is RIDICULOUS to think and act otherwise. It is not- "Forgive me pleeeeaseeee Lord!!" but rather "THANK YOU LORD, for you have forgiven me, you have won me." It already happened, we do not have to keep begging for something that was GIVEN TO US, HAPPILY GIVEN TO US.

We have been cleaned. We, as children of the Light, children of God we have this hope. I do not believe it is something that we have to keep on asking for... it was a one time deal. His forgiveness has the same worth in this very moment. In accepting His AMAZING gift that means we are accepting that He is speaking over us "I AM YOURS AND YOU ARE MINE." The whole package, every bit of us, He took it all. We have been chosen, marked, set apart and ravished by love.

This changes us, this changes how we love others.
How we see Him and feel His love is how we will love others.
I want to love others well so it is important to me to get His Gospel right, to get the "GOOD NEWS" right. We are not meant to change the Gospel to our own unhealthy thoughts and feelings but rather be transformed. Rom 12:1-2

"I chose you. I see who you are, I see the price I will have to pay, I see how this will be hard, this may even hurt sometimes, but I say yes!" This is what He has told us and this is exactly how we get to live with others. To value them, to honor them, to be vulnerable together, to live in community, to see them how God sees them, and to fight for love... this is our joy.

Maybe we do not feel deserving of love but it doesn't even matter because we have forever and always been chosen. We were not deserving but Christ has changed all of that.

It is time to walk in the calling. It is time to receive a gift that WE have nothing to do with but we are legally justified to have. We have been made F-R-E-E. We are no longer slaves to sin, we need to start acting like it and calling others to walk into freedom, into their calling.

Baptism

We celebrated yesterday the 14 year Anniversary  of CCQ with the service at a pool! Our group, Senas de Esperanza, invited our Deaf friends to enjoy the day with us. Our team got to sign the service and worship. Here is a picture of a few of us with our friend Tere

After we has the baptisms and we ate!! So many people, communion and fun in and out of the pools. (There were many pools)

 13 de junio// June 13

Tomorrow is the 14th anniversary of the congregation of CCQ here in Queretaro. We will be going to a pool to have the service, baptisms, food, and swimming.

I decided that I want to get baptized. I got baptized when I was a little girl and was stoked to do it but I feel the joy and the "yes!" to do it again, for real this time. I knew I wanted to for a few years now but had been putting it off and well, I feel like I cannot put it off any longer. What better place than with my family here in Queretaro. God has freed me from the bondage that I was tangled in, He has done everything to be close to me and all that I can do now is worship him and this is how. As I dunk and "die to sin and live in Christ" it is completely an act of worship. I get to freely adore him in the presence of my family/church body.  I am stoked!
I have joy bubbling up from me and will not hold it back. I get to express my love, the love that has been given to me.

On fire

The Lord our God is high and lifted up. Who has made the world turn? Made the heavens to shine at night? Who has set my heart on fire?

Let's gooo

Going to California May 20th-1st of June! Kindaaaaa Really stoked!
For now I get to go back in forth every 6 months to renew my visa (I REALLY need to get another visa, workin on that)... this will not always happen but for now it is what it is and I will enjoy it. I will enjoy what God is doing both in Mexico and in California. I am looking forward to a time of blessing for me and the blessing I can be to others.

Let me know if you are able to get together and chat!
Contact:
mopaigeblue@yahoo.com

All my love,
+ more.

Your Presence- the air we breathe

Gracia constante. 



 The only words I have- constant grace. I cant see past right now but I know what God has is good and beautiful. You Lord will lead me on and keep me. You alone are worthy. 
I hear you calling me on, further up and further in. It could be scary but it doesn't have to be because I get to cling to you. I don't want it any other way, I do not want to think I can ever do this on my own.

Help me Lord to do the difficult, the things that are uncomfortable. Lead me and help me to flee from these selfish passions. May I rest in You even when I be rejected. I can rest secure because I know my identity and freedom in my Savior.  That I be not swayed to another but rather walk firm. Walk under the out pour of grace...

Lider,Pastor,Padre,Rey,Novio,Roca,Amigo,Amado mio, Descansa, Refugio, y Paz.

Your leadership, it is perfect. I don't always understand your ways but it doesn't matter because your ways are higher.

Your plans for me are higher than I could ever imagine. What you have is good. I believe that You oh Lord are for me and in my surrender to You, You are transforming me and making me whole. This whole thing, this is a process with You. It feels a bit crazy at times but I wouldn't want it any other way. You know me. The privilege to be with you and gaze at your beauty every day is more than I could ask for! To be in your rest is better than life. I keep going because of You, You are my life and my love. That you would ever be before me, leading me on.
Oh, the joy of swimming inside of your blessings. You are an endless ocean and bottomless sea.

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 Tu liderazgo es perfecto. No entiendo Tus maneras siempre... y esta bien porque Tus maneras son mas altas. Todo lo que tienes y todo lo que haces es BUENO. Me estas transformando. Todo es un proceso contigo como un viaje. Hay tiempos locos pero no quiero nada diferente, Tu me facinas. Trabajar contigo es un privilegio, mirar y contemplar Tu hermosura dia tras dia. Sigo por Ti, Tu eres mi todo, mi vida y mi amor. Guiame. Tus bendeciones son increibles, impresionantes. Tu amor es profundo y ancho. En Ti no hay fin. Gracia y gracia y mas y mas y mas.

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But, I need more... there is always more in you. I know that you Jesus have died and LIVE so that there would always be enough. I am not satisfied with yesterdays bread when you have more still. Thank you for all that you have provided. Let me see me every side of you, I want to know each and every part of you. And you want to know us too as your children. Thank you for this amazing intimate relationship of going on further, deeper, and higher. It is a joy that has to be shared and made known.