Wow February is almost over! And today is Friday which means tomorrow I am free once again to rest and not have many responsibilities. I'm honestly very excited.
Working here I defiantly feel I am where God wants me at this time in my life. Its super exciting to be working and being used for His Glory. I'm really lovin it, lovin the kids (their good and bad attitudes), lovin the learning, and just lovin life. God is good! Working here at the ranch is not always easy. For sure I have days I just need to be alone and some days I just want to scream or cry. But really being here or even being on this earth... its not about me and what I can do here. Its about Jesus and how stinkin awesome He is. Its about all that He has done for me and all that He is teaching me and how I can share that.

" I am the Risen One who shines upon you always. You worship a living Deity, not some idolatrous, man-made image. You relationship with Me is meant to be vibrant and challenging, as I invade more and more areas of your life. Do not fear change, for I am making you a new creation, with old things passing away and new things continually on the horizon. When you cling to old ways and sameness, you resist My work within you. I want you to embrace all that I am doing in your life, finding security in Me alone.
    It is easy to make an idol of routine, finding security within the boundaries you build around your life. Although each day contains twenty-four hours, every single one presents a unique set of circumstances. Don't try to force-fit today into yesterday's mold. Instead, ask Me to open your eyes, so you can find all I have prepared for you in this precious day of Life."
  Matthew 28:5-7; 2 Corinthians 5:17

walk by the spirit

Galatians 5:16
But I say, walk by the Spirit, and you will not carry out the desire of the flesh.

Tuesday February 7, 2012
Today Ive been meditating on this verse, i feel like God wants me to know this and rest in this. Today I felt exhausted and my flesh was impatient and not very loving to my students. There is no excuse... tired or not im here to serve God and to do that i need to love which means having patience. But it hit me while teaching in class today. Do you ever feel like you need to scream, just to let it out? I wasn't angry, sad, or mad at anyone i just felt like i needed to do something. So i put on my worship music and started to pray while the kids worked. Then one boy stood up( Emiliano who is obsessed with New York and the Statue of Liberty) and did his impression of the statue of liberty and then i stood up and started with him. Then we both broke out in dancing to the music. Then the other kids saw and stood up and started to dance with us. By the way some of the kids can hear a little and others are totally deaf, either way it doesn't stop them from spontaneous dance parties. I think that's what was needed at that moment.



February 9, 2012
Oh boy yesterday and today were interesting days in school. I think God is for sure teaching me patience and that His timing is perfect not mine! Recently Ive been having trouble with one of my students. His mom is dying and he doesn't know how bad she is but he knows shes sick. Last Wednesday he went home for a few days to be with her and his family. And now he has been back here at the ranch since Monday. Ive been having a hard time with him. I know he is sad and doesn't want to be here, that is obvious. He already had a temper and was stubborn now he just doesn't want to do anything. So please be praying for him and for me to be able to have patience and be loving to him but also to be firm with him and not let him walk all over the me or the other students.  I am giving all these concerns up to God I know he is in control He is our Strength and Song.

Ah yes. You come refreshing like the rain. Thank you for the rain God. You know what we need and when we need it.

this is the day that the LORD has made.

 Written January 16th, 2012

I just keep telling myself this. This is the day that the LORD has made lets rejoice and be glad in it.

Its funny because Jesus has prepared this day, for me. He already knew what was going to take place before it had started. I woke up reading this: "He knows the days that will bring difficulties and He is with you-now and always. He will strengthen you and prepare you for this day, transforming your fears into confident trust. " Jesus Calling by Sarah Young

Today was an interesting day with one of my students Ricardo.
  Hes been on my heart lately so Ive been praying a lot for him. Lately he has been very angry, it happens very easily. He has a lot of anger outbursts in class and is pretty violent. Sometimes he gets so upset over something that he passes out... it happened a few weeks ago. Today one of the teachers had to hold him down cause he was freaking out,screaming, turning red and his body was spazzing out like he was trying to fight against her and get away. Then in class at first I was trying to make him happy so he wouldn't get angry but how is that going to help him? So whenever he looked like he was going to blow or break something I just took the time to pray with him and the whole class. When He prays he totally changes and calms down. He ended up getting angry later on and taking his desk and slamming it against the other students desks and ran out then came back and sat down outside and calmed down. He isn't always like this a lot of the time hes curious, asks lots of questions, and likes to learn.
Yesterday before this all happened I was praying for him and all last night, I felt like God wanted me to pray for him and then today that happened.
He is really fighting something inside. Satan does not want him to find God and understand he is loved.  I know you don't know him but if you could please pray for him. Sometimes he gets so angry I feel like he could kill someone without even thinking. He is Gods child and is hurting and lost. I know God knows him, knows his past, knows his heart and loves him.

Ricardo

burst

Isaiah 55:12

New International Version (NIV)

¹² You will go out in joy
   and be led forth in peace;
the mountains and hills
   will burst into song before you,
and all the trees of the field
   will clap their hands.

“I have known suffering, and it gives me a depth of compassion and understanding that I would never have otherwise possessed. When all was said and done, Satan got caught in the very snare he set for me. Don’t stop working with God until Satan’s evil plan for your life or your family backfires in his ugly face.”

—	Beth Moore’s The Patriarchs.

softy at heart

I just found out one of my students Juan Carlos is getting picked up tomorrow and going home for the rest of the school year. He was just starting to understand math and his signing has been improving. His attitude towards me and other kids totally has changed into love. He changed so much from always picking fights to being calm and respecting people.  I don't know what God is planning for his life, but I pray that He takes care of him. I pray that He really loves and lives for God.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Juan Carlos